I struggle with the memomries of the day and the several days leading to this one...

and then there are the memories of tomorrow and the many days after that

sometimes i want to remember it all.. recollect it all

there are times when i tell myself.. blnk them out..

then there are times when i tell myself, go with the flow... let it all come out

then there are time i tell myself... move on. 

how does one do it?  move on?

i know this loss... the loss of a parent.. was meant to be.. he lived long.. he was a parent.  a grand parent.. at his age.. they die

and then i am struck with fear..

of loss