the dreams ... they continue.

i wake up with a start

eyes wide awake..

and feel an emptiness

as if in a rarified room

no air to breathe

i struggle

gasp for air

the voice in my head .... ashoo ..how shall i breathe... there is no air

and i am terrified

i realise its a dream

i try to wake up my mind... its a dream..its a dreamm

and yet i hear another voice... he is gone... nevvvver to come back again

the loss.. the reality..the semi dream like state... it gets confusing

in that state too i hear another voice asking to get a hold on myself..its very easy to slip...the mind.. i shouldnt let it play games..

and somewhere in this ...i am lulled into a slumber once again.   for which i am greatful

as i wrtie this.. i think of death.. of loved ones.. my friends n family who have lot spouses.. children..

one cannot grade loss

one does, though!