I had a dream
and therein lay my downfall
I had a dream
From the the times I was a teen.
Probably influenced by a family I loved most,
from amongst my neighbours.
Or from the family
which was my own.
I learnt of expectations
I learnt of duties
I learnt of authority
So what was my dream?
I thrive on relationships
I have evolved.. evolved enough to today, accept a gray
along with the black and white.
The only colours which existed in my rainbow then
And yes
There was another..
Pink
A rosy pink..
I saw the world
through rose tinted glasses
And for the longest time
The world.. my vision from
those rosy pink glasses
Did not fail me!
I believed in family
I for them
They for me
My family ..the parents... gave.. and gave a lot
So when it was my turn ..I knew I had to show up.
I showed up.
For my parents
For his
That is all I knew
Duty
I had a dream
A simple one
It would be laughed upon today
How could one dream
of so little
Dreams are meant to set you free
To dare and rise
Mine was a simple one..
or so I thought
I thrive on relationships I have said
I learnt of duties I have said
I had learnt of expectations and authority.
This I have said.
I wanted a family
A family of four
A son
and then a daughter
My family.
I for them.
they for me.
I thought this was a template.
I was for them
All of them.
I had a dream
and therein lay my downfall
I had a dream
The dream when it played out in my mind
Had many characters
I did not realize
that the characters in my dream,
had dreams of their own
I had observed a template
I had tried to 'observe' and follow that template
I had a dream
and therein lay my downfall
I expected the template would pass down
like a tradition
I HAD ASSUMED THERE WAS A TEMPLATE
There never was one.
There was Free Will
And there was a rush to exercise that Right to Free Will
I had a dream
With that shattered...The shards prick
I bleed.
And yet,
I do not know any other way!
AND THERE LIES MY DOWNFALL!
